Thursday, July 3, 2008

Happy 4th!!!

I know the 4th of July is tomorrow but I won't be working (or blogging) so I'm sending my best wishes today!

Softball has been great this week. It truly is saving me from myself right now. This is going to be a short post but I've been going through a lot of stuff lately as most of you know (or have read). Last night was a difficult night and I'm laying down some hard boundaries in certain relationships. I often doubt myself and want to retract but I read this quote this morning and it really gave me some much need encouragement...

The keynote speaker at the breakfast, Hollywood producer Mark Joseph, quoted a recent cover article in Christianity Today by professors Daniel Taylor and Mark McCloskey that said:

"In premodern times, the courage of a leader often had to be physical. In the last 500 years it is more often moral. Moral courage is the ability to do what's right even when it is deeply unpopular, even dangerous. Courage is only found where there is the genuine possibility of loss -- loss of friends, reputation, status, power, possessions or, at the extremes, freedom or life."

Have a good holiday! Enjoy some fireworks - I know I will!!!

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Two posts - One day

I know!!! Mark this day on your calendar because it will probably be the only time you'll see this happen.

Read the post below first then come up to this one. I just listened to an online sermon about the Dangers of the Emerging Church. Rob Bell was mentioned in it and I have some serious issues with him and his beliefs. But outside of him I do have some major concerns in regards to this topic. I want to hear your thoughts about the "Emerging Church" good or bad.

So, if I still have readers out there it's your turn to weigh in. I'm listening!!!!

Have some consideration

If you guys thought I was lying about the IcyHot think again. I'm not kidding when I say I feel like a 70 year old woman this morning. It hurts to laugh, cough, move my arm - just plain move in general - lol. But for all of the physical anguish i'm in today i'm in a great mood. Softball is very theraputic for me. And I needed it after my day yesterday.

Ahhhh yes, the day. Monday. Why are Monday's always the worst. I blog about this all of the time and it never ceases to amaze me just how awful they are. Whatever emotional barracade I build up over the weekend comes crashing down around me. I'm so not kidding about this. I'll spare you the details of the morning because it's way too personal but in the afternoon my boss called me into her office for another "closed door" meeting. I find that i've been getting these once a month since about January. Apparently my job performance sucks. It wasn't exactly said like that but it was pretty darn close. Why you might ask. Because my boss is a micromanager and nitpicks about the DUMBEST things - like her 10 minute rant about how I didn't say hi to her 2 weeks ago when she walked in the door. I say hi to EVERYBODY when they walk in. I remember that day clearly. First of all it was a ROUGH morning and second I was so super busy that I didn't even hear her say Hi. It was the first and only time i've ever not said it. After that she sugarcoated it with, "look, i know you have a lot of personal stuff going on and I haven't lost faith in you. I believe in you and that this downturn will pass... yada, yada" It was nice but once your kicked when you are already down the sugarcoating isn't all that sweet. Now, could my job performance be improved - absolutely. But, i'm bored. I do the same thing everyday which is pretty much sit here, answer phones, and edit resumes. I'm way over qualified for this job. That's not me bragging... it's the truth. The problem is 1. I love everyone I work with 2. My bosses really are great bosses 3. I can come and go whenever I pretty much want, make my own hours, and we get tons of time off for holiday's and vacations 4. It's a steady job and with the economy the way it is i'd be crazy to jump ship 5. If i ever pass my Praxis next month this job will give me the flexibility to go to school. So you see - as much as I want to spork my eyes out it makes no sense to look elsewhere.

Let's now talk about the title of this blog - have some consideration. Every Tuesday starting from today until the end of the summer is Jazz night in Westfield. People swarm into Westfield like cockroaches to listen to the live Jazz bands they have playing all around town. The stores are open late, sidewalk restaurants and cafes are buzzing, and there are a ton of things for the kids to do. But the town is PACKED. So, instead of fighting the traffic later on this evening from this point forward I will be taking the train on Tuesdays. Now, if I wasn't so lazy in the morning i'd catch the 7:17 train. But, because i'm lazy I usually catch the 7:42 express train into Newark. I left my house at 7:30 to take the 5 minute walk to the train which would leave me over 5 minutes to buy a ticket. The first of the month at a station is like the first of the month at a welfare office. The line to buy the tickets was ridiculous. So much so that the train pulled up early at 7:39 and I watched the train pull away at 7:42 still waiting in line to get a ticket. The next train was at 7:50 and it was a local train - no big deal. The guy that was 2 people ahead of me (now, we ALL can see there is a really LONG line) decides to buy 10 one way tickets. 10! These ticket machines print like your watching paint dry. I didn't see 10 people with him. Is there a need to buy 10 one way tickets NOW??!! Needless to say I BARELY made the 7:50 train but I did - thank goodness.

Between softball yesterday and taking the train today I realized that I need to slow my life down. I'm always in such a rush and I try to be in too many places at one time. I blame my parents for that. Some of you know my mom (and I love her) but if you don't - if I need to be somewhere and i'm not there 1 minute early all hell breaks loose. My mom loses her mind on me. So I have an unrealistic sense of urgency almost all the time. Plus, it's a control thing for me. If I take the trian I really have no control over times or when i'm getting somewhere. If I have my car I can come and go whenever I want and there's no waiting (unless there's traffic of course and in traffic my stress level goes from 0 to 10 in less than a second). I'm way to wound up, way too stressed, and I care way too much about being places if there really isn't a specific time to be somewhere. Who wants to live life at warp speed or constantly stressed?! I mean, I know I live in the Northeast at the center of the world pretty much but I can at least attempt to slow down. It will never be a snails pace but maybe it'll be a little bit slower than what it is now.

We have this radio in the office that usually plays 100.3, 103.5, or 95.5 - all Top 40 stations pretty much. There is this guy in our office who sits at a desk pretty close to my front desk. He has his own radio. He INSISTS on playing Iron Maiden and death metal every morning and then again late in the afternoon. Not only that but he plays it soooo loud that I can't even concentrate. DRIVES ME CRAZY!!!! You ask him to turn it down and he flips out. Complains that the other radio is too loud and since he hates listening to it he has to drown it out by playing his extra loud. It's an everyday battle. Can you imagine listening to Iron Maiden every morning without wanting to throw yourself off a building???

Short week for me - we have a half day on Thursday and then off on Friday. So far I have no idea what i'm doing really. The game plan is fireworks at Brookdale park Thursday night with Tommy and a bunch of friends. Brookdale fireworks by the way are probably the best in NJ. I'm hoping the pool at Sarah's parents boat on Friday. Saturday is a BBQ at my parents trailer and Sunday I will be vegging in front of the TV (I hope). That's the game plan for the holiday weekend.

Alright - even though it's Tuesday it's technically my Wednesday. Woohooo!!

Monday, June 30, 2008

Softball

Today is my first softball game of the season. From now until the middle of August I have a game every Monday and Wednesday night. Last year we were the league Champions so we're hoping for a repeat. It's definitely pretty competitive (if it wasn't I wouldn't drive almost an hour to play 2 days a week).

I'm so behind on the updates. It's not that I don't want to blog I just feel like my life really isn't all that interesting.  So let's talk about the weekend

Friday night I went to Adega with my friend E in Newark. Not a big place but definitely fun. Good mix of music - Hip Hop, Top 40, Reggae, Latin. The floors light up like you are playing a giant game of Simon (not Simon Says - Simon the memory game). Saturday I was finally able to drag Sarah along for a weekend adventure. It's been awhile since we actually hung out on a Friday or Saturday. We went into the city because we were meeting Estrella at this club in Midtown - Mantra. I can't quite figure out what the big deal is about this club. It's definitely one of those places that's tough to get in to. Once we got into the VIP section it was better but it was way too crowded and way too hot. We still had fun though. After two days of dancing my hamstrings were definitely a little sore (how sad is that).

And let's talk about being sore... I had softball practice yesterday ontop of two days of dancing. My body is getting OLD. I'm cracking and popping all over the place. My butt, shoulders, hips, arms, legs - all sore. And I have a game tonight. Tomorrow will be a whole post on IcyHot & heating pads.

God is really teaching me a lot lately. I hate it and love it all at the same time. Actually, what I mostly hate is being so self-aware. What I mean by being so self-aware is the awareness of all of my insecurities in relationships (including trust issues which feed into my abandonment issues). They are on the forefront of everything lately since that seems to be what He wants me to work on.

It's Monday right. I was the first one into the office so I thought i'd be nice and make coffee. For some reason I could not get the coffeemaker to work. I checked the plug, I checked the grinder - nothing. My boss comes in and I tell him our coffeemaker isn't working. He walks over and goes, "well, it would help if you plug it in." I plugged the toaster in instead and everytime I checked the plug I was checking the toaster. Woohoo - go ME! What an idiot I am. Ahhhh Monday's.

Ok - that's the update. I have to work. It's a holiday week - yay!

Monday, June 16, 2008

6 months till Christmas?!

I mean really people - where is this year going?! There's less than 6 months of shopping left until Christmas. How fantastically crazy (but true) is that statement. I just want to hit the pause button right now and soak up all that has happened so far. For me, everything has happened so fast that I really haven't had the chance to stop and reflect on it all. And when I do have those rare moments to sit back and take it all in it's overwhelming. It's either all or nothing since I don't have days (or even hours) to reflect on anything.

I saw something pretty incredible yesterday at my local Starbucks. First of all, I love my Starbucks. It works like a well oiled machine. I never wait more than 3 minutes for my coffee no matter how busy it is (and believe me - it gets super busy). Second, they make the best coffee. I've been to dozens of Starbucks and this one makes every cup perfect. It's never to sweet or never not sweet enough. Third, and this is what I saw yesterday, the management. I know just about everyone that works there now and there's this woman who is ALWAYS cleaning and running around. I figured she was the manager but never really asked. Yesterday I see her mopping the floor and scrubbing the bathroom. I stopped and made small talk then asked her if she was the manager (which, like I guessed, she was). I mean, my jaw must have dropped to the floor. I couldn't praise her enough for doing the dirty work. She said to me, "I would never ask my employee's to do something I wouldn't do myself." How awesome is that! There are not a lot of people in the working world left who truly walk the walk and don't just talk the talk. She rocks my socks!

Speaking of the weekend... this one was the first drama free weekend since Memorial Day. Friday night, Sarah and I layed low and had a drink at the local bar. Saturday - my lovely girls (Karina, Nicole, and Liz) came over and I made breakfast. I love getting together with them on Saturday's because it's just a nice time to catch up with each other. Afterwards, Liz & Nicole spent an hour and a half down in Nirvana (Melissa met them there). They had personal shoppers picking out lots of clothes for them. It was so much fun to watch. Kind of like that scene in Sex & the City where Carrie is putting on a fashion show for her friends. Good times. It was so miserable out that afterwards I really didn't want to do anything. It was a catch 22 because I didn't want to stay in but I also didn't want to be outside. I layed on the couch for about 2 hours when I finally decided to go to the batting cages. My softball season starts June 30th so I thought it would be a good idea to get some swings in. I'm getting old because I have sore muscles that I didn't even realize belonged to me. Saturday night I had my choice of either continuing my laziness on the couch, going into the city with Liz and the girls, or going to see Tommy play. After a long debate with myself (and realizing it was pouring outside) I decided to stay in... well... until Sarah called and convinced me to go to the Colorado Cafe. It was kind of lame though since it's the summer. Normally that place is packed out but it wasn't. We ended up hangin' in the band room most of the night instead of dancing. Yesterday, I took Sarah to LaGuardia Airport (in New York) because she's visiting a friend in Minnesota. What normally should take 40 minutes turned into a 2 hour nightmare. Thank goodness I took some detours too which I normally wouldn't have otherwise it would have taken 4 hours and she would have missed her flight. I have no idea what was going on on the Cross Bronx yesterday but there were 2 hour delay's from some of the George Washington Bridge approaches. I took the one that only took an hour and 15 minutes- thank goodness. And, what the hellllzzz is the deal that it cost me $18 to get to the airport. That's only 2 bridges! $8 for the GWB and $10 for the Triborough. Man - as if gas prices aren't bad enough! When I finally got back into NJ I had dinner with my family for father's day, played Wii (I love the Wii), and then went home and watched Army Wives before going to bed. All and all not much of an exciting weekend.

Today - I gots a HOT DATE with Chrissy. A little bit of food, SATC since she hasn't seen it, then a sleepover at her apartment. Good times ahead!!!

Is this week over yet??

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Politics - bring it on!

I've refrained from politics a lot in my blogs over the last year or so. But, I couldn't help post this article. Yes, it's by Ann Coulter. I'm a fan and I don't care what anyone says. Yes, she is radical but I think this article speaks right to the point with very little sass. The comparison of the troop deaths in Iraq today to the deaths in Chicago really struck me. It's incredible how quickly we forget where it all started...

BUSH'S AMERICA: 100 PERCENT AL-QAIDA FREE SINCE 2001June 11, 2008In a conversation recently, I mentioned as an aside what a great president George Bush has been and my friend was surprised. I was surprised that he was surprised. I generally don't write columns about the manifestly obvious, but, yes, the man responsible for keeping Americans safe from another terrorist attack on American soil for nearly seven years now will go down in history as one of America's greatest presidents. Produce one person who believed, on Sept. 12, 2001, that there would not be another attack for seven years, and I'll consider downgrading Bush from "Great" to "Really Good." Merely taking out Saddam Hussein and his winsome sons Uday and Qusay (Hussein family slogan: "We're the Rape Room People!") constitutes a greater humanitarian accomplishment than anything Bill Clinton ever did -- and I'm including remembering Monica's name on the sixth sexual encounter. But unlike liberals, who are so anxious to send American troops to Rwanda or Darfur, Republicans oppose deploying U.S. troops for purely humanitarian purposes. We invaded Iraq to protect America. It is unquestionable that Bush has made this country safe by keeping Islamic lunatics pinned down fighting our troops in Iraq. In the past few years, our brave troops have killed more than 20,000 al-Qaida and other Islamic militants in Iraq alone. That's 20,000 terrorists who will never board a plane headed for JFK -- or a landmark building, for that matter. We are, in fact, fighting them over there so we don't have to fight them at, say, the corner of 72nd and Columbus in Manhattan -- the mere mention of which never fails to enrage liberals, which is why you should say it as often as possible. The Iraq war has been a stunning success. The Iraqi army is "standing up" (as they say), fat Muqtada al-Sadr --the Dr. Phil of Islamofascist radicalism -- has waddled off in retreat to Iran, and Sadr City and Basra are no longer war zones. Our servicemen must be baffled by the constant nay-saying coming from their own country. The Iraqis have a democracy -- a miracle on the order of flush toilets in that godforsaken region of the world. Despite its newness, Iraq's democracy appears to be no more dysfunctional than one that would condemn a man who has kept the nation safe for seven years while deifying a man who has accomplished absolutely nothing in his entire life except to give speeches about "change." (Guess what Bill Clinton's campaign theme was in 1992? You are wrong if you guessed: "bringing dignity back to the White House." It was "change." In January 1992, James Carville told Steve Daley of The Chicago Tribune that it had gotten to the point that the press was complaining about Clinton's "constant talk of change.") Monthly casualties in Iraq now come in slightly lower than a weekend with Anna Nicole Smith. According to a CNN report last week, for the entire month of May, there were only 19 troop deaths in Iraq. (Last year, five people on average were shot every day in Chicago.) With Iraqi deaths at an all-time low, Iraq is safer than Detroit -- although the Middle Eastern food is still better in Detroit. Al-Qaida is virtually destroyed, surprising even the CIA. Two weeks ago, The Washington Post reported: "Less than a year after his agency warned of new threats from a resurgent al-Qaida, CIA Director Michael V. Hayden now portrays the terrorist movement as essentially defeated in Iraq and Saudi Arabia and on the defensive throughout much of the rest of the world, including in its presumed haven along the Afghanistan-Pakistan border." It's almost as if there's been some sort of "surge" going on, as strange as that sounds. Just this week, The New York Times reported that al-Qaida and other terrorist groups in Southeast Asia have all but disappeared, starved of money and support. The U.S. and Australia have been working closely with the Philippines, Malaysia and Indonesia, sending them counterterrorism equipment and personnel. But no one notices when 9/11 doesn't happen. Indeed, if we had somehow stopped the 9/11 attack, we'd all be watching Mohammed Atta being interviewed on MSNBC, explaining his lawsuit against the Bush administration. Maureen Dowd would be writing columns describing Khalid Sheik Mohammed as a "wannabe" terrorist being treated like Genghis Khan by an excitable Bush administration. We begin to forget what it was like to turn on the TV, see a tornado, a car chase or another Pamela Anderson marriage and think: Good -- another day without a terrorist attack. But liberals have only blind hatred for Bush -- and for those brute American interrogators who do not supply extra helpings of béarnaise sauce to the little darlings at Guantanamo with sufficient alacrity. The sheer repetition of lies about Bush is wearing people down. There is not a liberal in this country worthy of kissing Bush's rear end, but the weakest members of the herd run from Bush. Compared to the lickspittles denying and attacking him, Bush is a moral giant -- if that's not damning with faint praise. John McCain should be so lucky as to be running for Bush's third term. Then he might have a chance.

Friday, June 6, 2008

I know, I know...

I'm so behind on my posts. Honestly, it took me forever to get rid of my cold and then I dealt with a whole lot of drama so my blog has felt the repercussions.

Here's a list to rundown where i've been, where i'm at, and where i'm going

1. I can't handle an Obama/Clinton superticket. I've been praying with all my might against it
2. Memorial Day Weekend was terrible and everything spiraled out of control from that point until yesterday when it finally culminated. It was a good outcome after all the drama but it was drama nonetheless
3. SATC was FANTASTIC and i'm making a repeat attendance this weekend
4. I've been going to The Manor on Friday nights - it's a hip-hop club in the city. Awesome times!
5. Going to Sleezeside tonight (Seaside) for some R&R. It's going to be a hot, sunny weekend so why not enjoy it at the beach.
6. I've been enjoying a daily dose of a Starbucks classic - Iced, Skim Mocha
7. I love country line dancing - I do. The Colorado Cafe is my favorite Saturday night hotspot
8. I could eat a salad every day from 16 (my hangout in Westfield). Field Greens, tomato's, mozzarella, pignoli nuts, cucumbers, and chicken (i make them leave off the onions and olives). It's totally the nuts that make the entire salad and the homemade basalmic vinagrette.
9. My Ipod needs a June mix - anyone have any song suggestions?
10. Jersey summer has arrived - hot & humid

Alright that's a brief rundown. Not many details in there. I will say that life is crazy. Enjoy the weekend!!!